.:. What i've been through

Posted by Kaixing , , Monday, October 11, 2010 1:59 PM

For everythings i've went through . i see through everythings ! there's no one you can really trust in this world! that's how cruel this reality is . so stop dreaming!

it's so stupid to believe the people who hurt you the most won't hurt you for the second time . i'm dissapointed for what have happened . but i'm dissaponted even more with myself for trusting people too easily . givin' faith too easily . that's why i'm letting myself get hurt too easy that way . and i'm ashamed of it .

just take the tears that fall is the fee for what i've learn this far .

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.:. Money .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , 1:32 PM

I love money. because it can give me what i need . but though . sometimes i really am . HATE-ing money! there's always so many problems . so many things happened because of Money . people knows "Money isn't everything" and they said "but, everything need money" . and that's true . no matter how close you are with somebody . how easy going and faith you have between . IF it's come to MONEY . will everythings still be the same? will everybody still takes and goes easy on it? i doubt so! no matter how close . how many faith . how much you trusted but still . when it comes to money . they all break down . for what i've go through this far . for what i see this far . face the reality! when it comes to money . it's really can break anything into pieces! people say "though money is what everythings needed but still money can't buy a happiness" well said people! but . why do there's still people who get hurt because of money!

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.:. Life in Secondary School .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Monday, October 4, 2010 1:40 PM

Suddenly recalled my memories when i was in secondary school . haha . all that came up on me is . what kind of me back there? what kind of days i'm living back there? what kind of things happening back there? what kind of way i used to think? what kind of way i used to love . to care . to live? there's so many question marks on my mind . hmm . i wonder . :p

To be honest . i'm quite surprised that nothing actually really came out from those memories i recalled . hmm . i wonder why . haha . all i can remembered is food stand behind my school . the laughter i shared with my gank . the Loud that i shared with my classmate . a game i played with my dad . the messy class i had in my third year . and just like usual . there's always some scandal . haha . Looks like there's nothing really special happened back there i guess . :))

i'm wondering . is the life back there way more easy for me? to enjoy? to live? to laugh? to be happy? . it feels like everythings is way more simple back there . or . it's just nothing really BIG i'd feel those days? :))

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.:. Romance .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Friday, August 6, 2010 4:05 PM



click here to view it on youtube . :)

A tribute to My Fair Lady (aka Lady Castle, Take Care of the Young Lady, 아가씨를 부탁해). Features a duet sung by Yoon Eun Hye (Hae-na) and Yoon Sang Hyun (Dong-chan) themselves.

윤상현:
Yoon sang hyun:

오랜 습관처럼 나의 곁에 있는 널 찾아
o raen seup gwan cheo reom na ui gyeot e it neun neor chaj a
I'm finding the girl who is always beside me like a habit

아닌척해도 물감이 번지듯 너를 향해 서성이는 나
a nin cheok hae do mul gam i beon ji deus neo reur hyang hae seo seong i neun na
I tried to hide my heart but Im always around you

사랑에 빠지면 뭐든 하나만 보이나봐요
sa rang e ppa ji myeon mwo deun ha na man bo i na bwa yo
If they're so fall in love, then in their eyes there's just one person

또 남자답게 붙잡지도 못하는 나라도 괜찮은건가요
tto nam ja dap ge but japp ji do mot ha neun na ra do gwaen chanh eun geon ga yo
Is it OK? If I can't hold your hands

사랑이죠 난 그거면 되요 그대 한 사람만으로 난
sa rang i jyo nan geu geo myeon doe yo geu dae han sa ram man eu ro nan
It is love? I'm alright.

행복할 수 있어요
haeng bok har su iss eo yo
I'm happy because of you

보고싶은 나의 맘을 멈출수 없어서 아파도 내 가슴에 둘래요
bo go sip eun na ui mam eur meom chul su eops eo seo a pa do nae ga seum e dul lae yo
I can't stop my heart from missing you. My heart is hurt but I will keep you inside it.

윤은혜:
Yoon Eun Hye

손을 놓으려고 애를 써봐도 다시 여긴데
son eur noh eu ryeo go ae reur sseo bwa do da si yeo gin de
I tried to let go of your hands but I'm still here

딴 여자 처럼 곱게 말도 못하는 나라도 괜찮은건가요
ttan yeo ja cheo reom gop ge mal do mot ha neun na ra do gwaen chanh eun geon ga yo
Is it alright if I speak like an elegant girl?

사랑이죠 난 그거면 되요 그대 한 사람만으로 난
sa rang i jyo nan geu geo myeon doe yo geu dae han sa ram man eu ro nan
It is love? I'm alright.

행복할 수 있어요
haeng bok har su iss eo yo
I'm happy because of you

보고싶은 나의 맘을 멈출수 없어서 아파도 내 가슴에 둘래요
bo go sip eun na ui mam eur meom chul su eops eo seo a pa do nae ga seum e dul lae yo
I can't stop my heart from missing you. My heart is hurt but I will keep you inside it.

사랑해요 그댈 사랑해요
sa rang hae yo geu daer sa rang hae yo
Love you, I love you

내겐 두번 다시는 오지 않을 내 사람이죠
nae gen du beon da si neun o ji anh eur nae sa ram i jyo
You're my man, my first and the last man

다 버려도 그대만 오면 난 괜찮아요
da beo ryeo do geu dae man o myeon nan gwaen chanh a yo
When you're beside me everything will be OK

함께:
ham kke:
Both:

아파도 그댈 사랑할래요
a pa do geu daer sa rang hal lae yo
Even though I'm hurt I still love you


그대는 나의 사랑 알까요
geu dae neun na ui sa rang al kka yo
Do you know about my love for you?

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.:. Gank .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Tuesday, August 3, 2010 10:55 AM

i just read my gank status . i know she post it directly want me or anyone else [old friend] to read that . i just know her too well . she said : "maybe soon she'll go to bali . she won't tell us . because we can never go back to the friendship like we used to be . so sorry . as we grown up . we all changed . wish that when the day she came back . we still remember her . though maybe she not the one she used to be anymore" . though i don't think much about it . but still i feel the pain . dissapointed . with our friendship .

she's the only 9 years friendship i've ever had . you stupid gank ! why you always think that way . why you became like this . this negatif . this minder . we all never changed! maybe the appearence . the style . the attitude somehow or whatever . but we never careless about our friendship , you know? though we all really less contact with each others because our own daily schedule . daily life . school . lecture . work . so what? how silly i am to believe that nothing will ever change our friendship . cause we've goes through all of this years didn't we? .

you never realize that you are the one who changes . who changed our friendship . you always think that people look down on you . take you for granted or even worse . buy hey! wake up friend . though maybe other people will think you like that but no doubt, we won't! hell NO! . cause you know what . because we're friends . the real friends . we all accept you just the way you are . even though maybe you have some attitude or anything we don't like but so? does it really matter? NO! because you are my friend . OURS! if we don't like anything of any of us . we all speak directly to that person . don't we? though sometimes it happened some quarels . some fight . some misunderstood . but we overcame all of this, didn't we? if i don't care at all how can i have this 9years friendship with you !

why you so silly always think that we gave up on you ? we never do that okay! we do care about you . don't you know we all just don't know how to communicate softly with each of us? especially me! i thought you would understand me . i thought you know me the most . but hey . see what exactly goin on . i'm too confused to think what on your mind already . i'm tired to fight for our friendship anymore . it make me even hurts when i realize it just me who really did care about it . who really did fight for it . if you read this i know you would be angry and said hey . me too okay . but hey gank . i don't see your action . i don't see what you give what you do to maintaince this as well my friend . i'm enough of hurts anymore okay . how i wish if you could be just like you used to be . the same old positif . cheers . spirit . the same old you that i knew .

if you really do . come on . let us know . let us see . let us feel the effort you will make . we're still waiting the day we used to share . there's always better late then never . i really miss my gank . =(

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.:. 爱疯了.:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Monday, August 2, 2010 9:58 PM



不敢问 却一直想问
你心里藏着什么人
不敢猜 却一直想猜
如回去 有没有可能
我不够完整
你给的从来不够完整
你一个语气都无法确认
这种缺乏是什么象征

不开灯 我不要开灯
我身边容不下别的人
不锁门 我不要锁门
你回来是一种信任
我那么的认真
去思考你对我的认真
或许是多么伤害人
而结论始终是疑问

我爱疯了
我疯到自己痛也不晓得
放弃了保护自己的责任
放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份

我不管了
我不管这伤口能不能愈合
选择了你也许是错的人
选择包容了你的不安分
我尊重我的 选择
我想我 疯了

不开灯 我不要开灯
我身边容不下别的人
不锁门 我不要锁门
你回来是一种可能
我那么的认真
去思考你对我的认真
或许是多么伤害人
而结论始终是疑问

我爱疯了
我疯到自己痛也不晓得
放弃了保护自己的责任
放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份

我不管了
我不管这伤口能不能愈合
选择了你也许是错的人
选择包容了你的不安分
我尊重我的 选择

我想我 疯了
请尊重我的 选择
我想我
疯 了

请尊重我的 选择
我想我
疯 了

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.:. Somehow .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Tuesday, July 27, 2010 8:59 PM

when your man or your lady suddenly text you . "please don't leave me" . what is your first respond? what do you feel? what do you think? and what will be your answer? .

i don't know . but . few days ago . in the middle of the night . when my mind somehow goes thinking about everything . anything . about my relationship . i lost control . and i can't help but keeps raining . i don't know how to describe that feelings . it feels like my heart has been dig out . empty . and i'm dying inside . i almost can't breathe at that time . i miss you so much my man . i try not to cry . but i can't help it . and somehow i text him "Please don't leave me" . i guess that's how i feel that time, huh? how i really wish that he were right here with me and he would understand . but guess . what did he reply me? .

he asked . why do i asked him that question . am i afraid of being Lonely? . i was shocked?? i don't know what is it . i don't know what to say anymore . my heart feels like it's burning . it hurts so much till i'm blank . out of words . feels like my soul was lost somewhere . it's another rainy day for me again . i keep telling myself to be strong . yes . i can . yes . i am . but the thunder just keeps appear in my life .

don't you know? . i wasn't asking you to not leave me . my man . but i said . please . don't leave me . have you ever have a thought that it's because . i love you? . yes . i do . i just don't have any courage to tell you . yes my man . i do Love you . i'm not afraid of being lonely either . have you ever have a thought about how i feel? i really need you now . need you to convince me with all this kind of situation . yes we can fight against all of this . because i'm afraid that i cannot make it when it feels like just me who fight for it . every words i said . i mean it . and when i said i love you . yes . i really do . please have no doubt about it my man .

just somehow . i wish you would understand . i don't care about the pain . about the heart breaks . if you would just say you understand . it's enough for me .

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