.:. Girlfriends Don't Say That .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Saturday, November 27, 2010 12:45 PM

I'm in pain and worst ! My heart is broken and burned ! we're all in great pain and hurt ! The most hardest situation we face and heart breaks we gain . either do you .

but the most saddest part is . it's feels like . we are the ONLY bad guy .

his only ONE word can BEAT our THOUSAND words . even just an explanation from him . either can beat the LIFETIME we use to convince you!

and when you say . you don't wanna talk about it anymore . you don't wanna know anymore . even FRIENDS ! you don't want it anymore . don't you know how hurtful that words to all of us? you said it's because of emotional . but if you do not have any kind of that intention . i doubt you'll say that kind of words . the most unexpected word i hear from you . you know, girlfriends don't say that!

through the sms you sent . it breaks my heart once again . all of us! you said if we talk you out with a gently way . you'll definitely hear us out . but not with all this threaten way! just think back yourself my dear . what did you say to us right from the start? and what did we said to you right from the start? did we force you? did we not tryna talk you out with the kind of gently way? did we being harsh on you from the begining? if you feel or wanna say yes we are not being understanding . we DID threatening you . forcing you right from the start . then we have no other word to say anymore . we just can say . yes, we're WRONG! and YES, we are BAD!!! really bad bad bad people ! doing meaningless thing! just digging hole for ourselves! you said you never can choose which side of us . but deep down in our heart knows what your answer . don't denied cause we all feel the same!

after all of this . i'd see through everything . from now on . i won't say ANY word anymore . everything i feel . everything i wanna say . i'm gonna EAT it myself!

you can say it is TRUE that we don't have any right to interrupt in this matter . but you can never denied that . it's TRUE . your PARENT absolutely have the right to know about this! i give you a sentence, "Fire can never be wrapped up in paper . 纸是包不住火的 " . remember . sooner or later . the truth will come to light . sigh*

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.:. Blinded L.O.V.E .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Friday, November 26, 2010 8:46 PM

it truly really horrible when you became BLIND in love . you can only think for your love one . feel from your love one . see that he's/she's the one . and can only hear from your love one . and whatever people say . they're all just an IGNORANT people who don't know ANYTHING! who don't know how you feel . what you want . what's your heart . and yes it's true! maybe we don't know what kind of relationship you have . what kind of sweet moment you had . what kind of romance you'd experience . what kind of emotional you feel . what kind of future you see . yes . it is! 'cause we're not you! but HELL yeah . we're just a BUSYBODY who see the DAMN whole thing . who's getting HURT because MIND other business!

There it is . the BLINDED love . no matter how people try to heed them advice . they won't hear you out . they just know to say you don't understand me . you don't know everythings . anythings and whatever .

what do you think who we are? are we those PEOPLE who got endless time that get bored with our days and tryna creating troubles and stressful out to SOMEBODY? are we that kind of people? are we? do you think we enjoy seeing you like THIS? are we happy to see you like THIS? do we? what do you think why we're doing this? because of what? because our heart won't allow us to see you HOLDING on this kind of relationship ANYMORE!

we all know how much he means to you . how much you rely on him . though you said you choose NO ONE . but from this matter . i knew . YES . he does mean MUCH to you then us . you're too defending him though you said you're not . no matter how much you denied . that's how i feel . i believe they also do . after listened to what he said you believe that he's not wrong! but it's all because of his INTENTION to do it all . very well said my senhoras! all the explanation to all the matters is just an excuses . his ATTITUDE is unacceptable! i just got to know that our friendship can also be so FRAGILE when it's fight against him! that's what i felt and what they felt . we know you well . and he just know how to melt your heart .

everytime you always said yes . this is a right chance . i got a reason to break up with him . this is my chance . yes, i will! this is the second time you said so . how come only one time of his explanation which means just an excuses to all of us . all those words you said . all the things that happened can be vanish within a sec? . all the truth is all standing in front of you to see . but you choose to be blind! we don't understand it AT ALL!

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.:. Express .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Friday, November 19, 2010 8:00 PM

It's really been a long time that i haven't been here . i don't even know what keeps me . only one word to describe i think . and that's absolutely "Blank" . haha . well . i really got so much to write about . but still . whatever keep me blank . slow and down .

This few days i've been feeling really down . i feel stress . but i don't know what am i stress-ing about . i keep it down for so long . till i can't hold it anymore . and finally it burst-ing out . i've just cried and my emotion still being down . i don't know why i'm crying . but it makes me feel relieve after it . i'm not that good to express my feeling with saying so i think crying suits me more . sometimes . there's just something i can't said it out . i don't know how to tell . how to express . i can't find any words to describe . so crying it definitely the best way for me to let it all out . but absolutely it's crying . alone . haha . hope i gets better . :)

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.:. What i've been through

Posted by Kaixing , , Monday, October 11, 2010 1:59 PM

For everythings i've went through . i see through everythings ! there's no one you can really trust in this world! that's how cruel this reality is . so stop dreaming!

it's so stupid to believe the people who hurt you the most won't hurt you for the second time . i'm dissapointed for what have happened . but i'm dissaponted even more with myself for trusting people too easily . givin' faith too easily . that's why i'm letting myself get hurt too easy that way . and i'm ashamed of it .

just take the tears that fall is the fee for what i've learn this far .

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.:. Money .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , 1:32 PM

I love money. because it can give me what i need . but though . sometimes i really am . HATE-ing money! there's always so many problems . so many things happened because of Money . people knows "Money isn't everything" and they said "but, everything need money" . and that's true . no matter how close you are with somebody . how easy going and faith you have between . IF it's come to MONEY . will everythings still be the same? will everybody still takes and goes easy on it? i doubt so! no matter how close . how many faith . how much you trusted but still . when it comes to money . they all break down . for what i've go through this far . for what i see this far . face the reality! when it comes to money . it's really can break anything into pieces! people say "though money is what everythings needed but still money can't buy a happiness" well said people! but . why do there's still people who get hurt because of money!

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.:. Life in Secondary School .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Monday, October 4, 2010 1:40 PM

Suddenly recalled my memories when i was in secondary school . haha . all that came up on me is . what kind of me back there? what kind of days i'm living back there? what kind of things happening back there? what kind of way i used to think? what kind of way i used to love . to care . to live? there's so many question marks on my mind . hmm . i wonder . :p

To be honest . i'm quite surprised that nothing actually really came out from those memories i recalled . hmm . i wonder why . haha . all i can remembered is food stand behind my school . the laughter i shared with my gank . the Loud that i shared with my classmate . a game i played with my dad . the messy class i had in my third year . and just like usual . there's always some scandal . haha . Looks like there's nothing really special happened back there i guess . :))

i'm wondering . is the life back there way more easy for me? to enjoy? to live? to laugh? to be happy? . it feels like everythings is way more simple back there . or . it's just nothing really BIG i'd feel those days? :))

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.:. Romance .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Friday, August 6, 2010 4:05 PM



click here to view it on youtube . :)

A tribute to My Fair Lady (aka Lady Castle, Take Care of the Young Lady, 아가씨를 부탁해). Features a duet sung by Yoon Eun Hye (Hae-na) and Yoon Sang Hyun (Dong-chan) themselves.

윤상현:
Yoon sang hyun:

오랜 습관처럼 나의 곁에 있는 널 찾아
o raen seup gwan cheo reom na ui gyeot e it neun neor chaj a
I'm finding the girl who is always beside me like a habit

아닌척해도 물감이 번지듯 너를 향해 서성이는 나
a nin cheok hae do mul gam i beon ji deus neo reur hyang hae seo seong i neun na
I tried to hide my heart but Im always around you

사랑에 빠지면 뭐든 하나만 보이나봐요
sa rang e ppa ji myeon mwo deun ha na man bo i na bwa yo
If they're so fall in love, then in their eyes there's just one person

또 남자답게 붙잡지도 못하는 나라도 괜찮은건가요
tto nam ja dap ge but japp ji do mot ha neun na ra do gwaen chanh eun geon ga yo
Is it OK? If I can't hold your hands

사랑이죠 난 그거면 되요 그대 한 사람만으로 난
sa rang i jyo nan geu geo myeon doe yo geu dae han sa ram man eu ro nan
It is love? I'm alright.

행복할 수 있어요
haeng bok har su iss eo yo
I'm happy because of you

보고싶은 나의 맘을 멈출수 없어서 아파도 내 가슴에 둘래요
bo go sip eun na ui mam eur meom chul su eops eo seo a pa do nae ga seum e dul lae yo
I can't stop my heart from missing you. My heart is hurt but I will keep you inside it.

윤은혜:
Yoon Eun Hye

손을 놓으려고 애를 써봐도 다시 여긴데
son eur noh eu ryeo go ae reur sseo bwa do da si yeo gin de
I tried to let go of your hands but I'm still here

딴 여자 처럼 곱게 말도 못하는 나라도 괜찮은건가요
ttan yeo ja cheo reom gop ge mal do mot ha neun na ra do gwaen chanh eun geon ga yo
Is it alright if I speak like an elegant girl?

사랑이죠 난 그거면 되요 그대 한 사람만으로 난
sa rang i jyo nan geu geo myeon doe yo geu dae han sa ram man eu ro nan
It is love? I'm alright.

행복할 수 있어요
haeng bok har su iss eo yo
I'm happy because of you

보고싶은 나의 맘을 멈출수 없어서 아파도 내 가슴에 둘래요
bo go sip eun na ui mam eur meom chul su eops eo seo a pa do nae ga seum e dul lae yo
I can't stop my heart from missing you. My heart is hurt but I will keep you inside it.

사랑해요 그댈 사랑해요
sa rang hae yo geu daer sa rang hae yo
Love you, I love you

내겐 두번 다시는 오지 않을 내 사람이죠
nae gen du beon da si neun o ji anh eur nae sa ram i jyo
You're my man, my first and the last man

다 버려도 그대만 오면 난 괜찮아요
da beo ryeo do geu dae man o myeon nan gwaen chanh a yo
When you're beside me everything will be OK

함께:
ham kke:
Both:

아파도 그댈 사랑할래요
a pa do geu daer sa rang hal lae yo
Even though I'm hurt I still love you


그대는 나의 사랑 알까요
geu dae neun na ui sa rang al kka yo
Do you know about my love for you?

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.:. Gank .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Tuesday, August 3, 2010 10:55 AM

i just read my gank status . i know she post it directly want me or anyone else [old friend] to read that . i just know her too well . she said : "maybe soon she'll go to bali . she won't tell us . because we can never go back to the friendship like we used to be . so sorry . as we grown up . we all changed . wish that when the day she came back . we still remember her . though maybe she not the one she used to be anymore" . though i don't think much about it . but still i feel the pain . dissapointed . with our friendship .

she's the only 9 years friendship i've ever had . you stupid gank ! why you always think that way . why you became like this . this negatif . this minder . we all never changed! maybe the appearence . the style . the attitude somehow or whatever . but we never careless about our friendship , you know? though we all really less contact with each others because our own daily schedule . daily life . school . lecture . work . so what? how silly i am to believe that nothing will ever change our friendship . cause we've goes through all of this years didn't we? .

you never realize that you are the one who changes . who changed our friendship . you always think that people look down on you . take you for granted or even worse . buy hey! wake up friend . though maybe other people will think you like that but no doubt, we won't! hell NO! . cause you know what . because we're friends . the real friends . we all accept you just the way you are . even though maybe you have some attitude or anything we don't like but so? does it really matter? NO! because you are my friend . OURS! if we don't like anything of any of us . we all speak directly to that person . don't we? though sometimes it happened some quarels . some fight . some misunderstood . but we overcame all of this, didn't we? if i don't care at all how can i have this 9years friendship with you !

why you so silly always think that we gave up on you ? we never do that okay! we do care about you . don't you know we all just don't know how to communicate softly with each of us? especially me! i thought you would understand me . i thought you know me the most . but hey . see what exactly goin on . i'm too confused to think what on your mind already . i'm tired to fight for our friendship anymore . it make me even hurts when i realize it just me who really did care about it . who really did fight for it . if you read this i know you would be angry and said hey . me too okay . but hey gank . i don't see your action . i don't see what you give what you do to maintaince this as well my friend . i'm enough of hurts anymore okay . how i wish if you could be just like you used to be . the same old positif . cheers . spirit . the same old you that i knew .

if you really do . come on . let us know . let us see . let us feel the effort you will make . we're still waiting the day we used to share . there's always better late then never . i really miss my gank . =(

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.:. 爱疯了.:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Monday, August 2, 2010 9:58 PM



不敢问 却一直想问
你心里藏着什么人
不敢猜 却一直想猜
如回去 有没有可能
我不够完整
你给的从来不够完整
你一个语气都无法确认
这种缺乏是什么象征

不开灯 我不要开灯
我身边容不下别的人
不锁门 我不要锁门
你回来是一种信任
我那么的认真
去思考你对我的认真
或许是多么伤害人
而结论始终是疑问

我爱疯了
我疯到自己痛也不晓得
放弃了保护自己的责任
放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份

我不管了
我不管这伤口能不能愈合
选择了你也许是错的人
选择包容了你的不安分
我尊重我的 选择
我想我 疯了

不开灯 我不要开灯
我身边容不下别的人
不锁门 我不要锁门
你回来是一种可能
我那么的认真
去思考你对我的认真
或许是多么伤害人
而结论始终是疑问

我爱疯了
我疯到自己痛也不晓得
放弃了保护自己的责任
放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份

我不管了
我不管这伤口能不能愈合
选择了你也许是错的人
选择包容了你的不安分
我尊重我的 选择

我想我 疯了
请尊重我的 选择
我想我
疯 了

请尊重我的 选择
我想我
疯 了

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.:. Somehow .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Tuesday, July 27, 2010 8:59 PM

when your man or your lady suddenly text you . "please don't leave me" . what is your first respond? what do you feel? what do you think? and what will be your answer? .

i don't know . but . few days ago . in the middle of the night . when my mind somehow goes thinking about everything . anything . about my relationship . i lost control . and i can't help but keeps raining . i don't know how to describe that feelings . it feels like my heart has been dig out . empty . and i'm dying inside . i almost can't breathe at that time . i miss you so much my man . i try not to cry . but i can't help it . and somehow i text him "Please don't leave me" . i guess that's how i feel that time, huh? how i really wish that he were right here with me and he would understand . but guess . what did he reply me? .

he asked . why do i asked him that question . am i afraid of being Lonely? . i was shocked?? i don't know what is it . i don't know what to say anymore . my heart feels like it's burning . it hurts so much till i'm blank . out of words . feels like my soul was lost somewhere . it's another rainy day for me again . i keep telling myself to be strong . yes . i can . yes . i am . but the thunder just keeps appear in my life .

don't you know? . i wasn't asking you to not leave me . my man . but i said . please . don't leave me . have you ever have a thought that it's because . i love you? . yes . i do . i just don't have any courage to tell you . yes my man . i do Love you . i'm not afraid of being lonely either . have you ever have a thought about how i feel? i really need you now . need you to convince me with all this kind of situation . yes we can fight against all of this . because i'm afraid that i cannot make it when it feels like just me who fight for it . every words i said . i mean it . and when i said i love you . yes . i really do . please have no doubt about it my man .

just somehow . i wish you would understand . i don't care about the pain . about the heart breaks . if you would just say you understand . it's enough for me .

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.:. How I Wish .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , Thursday, July 22, 2010 1:59 PM

How i wish you were here . so we can talk about whatever we want . whatever we Like . doesn't bothers about the time . there's nothing we can't talk about . share about or chat about . Like the same old days .

How i wish you will be there for me . no matter what . when i needed u the most . so there's nothing i'll be afraid of because you give me strength to face them all .

How i wish you will support me . whatever i do . so i will definitely fear no fail because you give me courage to do it all .

How i wish you know how i feel . when i'm just keep silent cause sometimes it's just so hard to tell . and you will understand .

How i wish you would care me a lil bit more . Love me a lil bit more . understand me a lil bit more . and i still can feel your love even with this long distance . i would feel secure even you are not here cause i believe in you .

How i wish i could just turn back the time to when things hasn't goes this bad . this awfull . this pain . to the time when we first started and find the way back to our loving day .

How i wish you are still the same . like the first time you confessed . How i wish if you could just make me feel your love . feel your care . feel secure . feel that i'm still the one .

 How i wish . . .

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.:. How i miss .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , 1:47 PM

How i miss the days we chit chat chot about everythings . there's nothing we can't talk about or share about .

How i miss the days we spend every moment together without feeling bored . even just u and me and keep silent .

How i miss the days we cook in the kitchen though we keep mocking each others .

How i miss the days we spend the holidays together . even it's just a few days trip . but i feel happy . i feel safe . and i feel loved .

How i miss the days we fall asleep while we're cuddling and chit chat chot about anything .

How i miss the days you cheer me up when i'm sad . frustrated . stress about something . some people . some problems . you always be there to buck me up . give me strength . give me courage . never stop caring me . fill me with your love .

i just can't stop missing them . cause you know why? . . . because things get different now . it just don't goes the same old way . everythings changed . except my heart . do you know? . i miss you so . . .

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.:. Right to Decided

Posted by Kaixing , , Tuesday, July 13, 2010 11:15 AM

everyone have the right to decided what they want . what they are . which one . which place or anything because it's their own life . others may be an influences to you but the choices in in your hand . so don't blame anyone if anything happened in the way you don't want it to be .

and some of nowdays people always be so minder . think way negatively . or some might even worst . when people head them an advice they will think that they look down or whatever . isn't it pain to live ur life this way?

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♥ If It's Worth Having . It's Worth Fighting For ♥

Posted by Kaixing , , 10:23 AM

nowdays people . most of them just live their life playing around . never do things seriously . some of it easy to get sick of something . get tired of something . then they gonna find something new and do it all over again . repeatly and repeatly . some of them just being lazy . lazy to work hard for it . lazy to put effort on it . and when things goes wrong they just complain about it . some of it just think to highly of themself . maybe you can say the king and the queen i guess . who take everythings for granted and when things turn out bad . they just blame on it . and many more other kind of people living in this world .

to me . i don't understand why they wanna live their life that way . isn't it's kind of waste? that's why most of them regret what they doing now when they grow up gradually . but it's still a good news that they'll realize about it so they can do it better . the worst is . some never know what they have done . what exactly goes wrong . when the others head them advice . they just !@#$%^&* and think what do you know about me . what do you understand about me or etc .


some of it just being too minder on everyhtings they wanna do . they just think they will never get it . reach it or whatever . Very well said from cheryl cole - fight for this love Lyric , "if it's worth having it's worth fighting for". so people, if you think it's worth having . then fight for it . don't just sitting there do nothing and day dreaming for it might happen one day . don't care about the outcome just fight for it . don't just give it up when you think you can't get it . you can't reach it . or it's beyond your power or whatever . do whatever you want . as long as it's not illegal . :))

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.:. Fight For This Love .:.

Posted by Kaixing , , 10:20 AM


you can click here for watching on youtube . :)

Cheryl Cole - Fight for this love

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt

Is it better? Is it worse?
Are we sitting in reverse?
It's just like we're going backwards
I know where I want this to go
Driving fast but let's go slow
What I don't wanna do is crash, no

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

Now every day ain't gon' be no picnic
Love ain't a walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

I don't know where we're heading I'm willing and ready to go
We've been driving so fast we just need to slow down and just roll

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

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