.:.New Member.:.

     wah~ so fast..today aLready 18 January Liao aa..feeLs Like i'm just ceLebrating my 2010 countdown party with my Ladies yeasterday ne..hahahaha..weLL..after graduated my senior high and jump into working fieLd..it's seems Like time past so quickLy..too quick i mean..

    Back to the topic..haha..yesterday [17 January 2010,,sunday] i'm dating with my Ladies..Lady Naa.Naa..Lady xiL..Lady bobo..so pity that my Lady vera didn't came..we are supposed to have our breakfast at 11am at SWEET..and Lady bobo wiLL fetch us at 1pm to have our Lunch at 37km..but scheduLed changed..we canceL our breakfast at sweet and headed to km37 dirrectLy around 12.30pm..but first..we got to fetch our new member..SASA..actuaLLy sasa is bobo's dog Lar..it's aLso a girL..haha..she is so obedient oo..don't bite and xtay quite aLL the time..even though..but we stiLL screamed when she came into the car..especiaLLy me and my Lady Naa.Naa.. =p when we arrived there..yeah~ eating time..so hungry that time..hahaha..our menu is..kangkung bLacan..sotong goreng tepung..and teLur dadar..indomie rebus..and rice of course..haha..in the middLe of eating bobo's so kho Lian aa..she has to take care of her dog,,sasa for not faLLing in Love with others doggy there..bobo said..sa~ their are not your LeveL..LOL~ and suddenLy appear a dog..don't know what type is it..they Looked at each other for about 1 minute and suddenLy that dog started to barking and ran away..is it provoke our sasa?..and sasa became to barking and ran around aLso..then bobo skip her meaL and take her for a waLk at the beach there..aaa..so "ho mia" de sasa..hahaha..after eating me and my Lady xiL aLso joining Lady bobo to take sasa for a waLk at beach..onLy our Lady Naa.Naa didin't join..cox afraid of some insect that made her trauma..cos if bitten my that kind of insect it wiLL Leave a scar..@.@

sasa's shower time..XD sasa standing in the toiLet then bobo started to cLeaned aLL those sand in sasa body and i heLp puring water to cLean..sasa so cuteeeeee~

DINNER TIME~ XD weLL,,most of our hang out activity is eating..haha..we had our dinner at PSP..most favourite is there's 'mie goreng' hahahaha..before that we send sasa back to home first and then we went to our Lady xiL's house and watched 'paranormaL activity' it's a true story happened in october 2006..one word to describe..horror..

P.S : another fun day hanging out with my dearest Ladies~ XD mwahhhhhhhhhhh~ 

.:HopeLess:.

i feLt so guiLty..i Lost aLL my courage..aLL my cheers..i don't want this happened..but i can't heLp..it's seems Like it's aLL my fauLt..what am i gonna do?..regret-ing..=[ i don't want to hurt anyone..i dote her so much just Like my own sister..i reaLLy Love her..i don't wanna hurt her..i don't want anythings happened to her..I SWEAR!!..i don't want things goes that way..but how am i gonna stop it?..can someone teLL me how?..i'm so sad..it's hurt me so much that i couLdn't controL my tears anymore..T.T my heart became so heavy..it's ache-ing so much Like it's gone breaks..it feeLs so terribLe..even worst than shooted by a gun or stabbed by a knife..feeL so hopeLess..GOD pLease heLp me..i hope she'LL understand why we aLL so worry-ing about her..reaLise that her famiLy Love her so much..maybe they can't express how they feeL to her..maybe the way they're showing their Love are different but NO DOUBT!! they Love you more than their Life..beLieve it..that's what we caLL nobLe of parent..hope you'LL come to your senses my LiL' sis..and no doubt i do reaLLy Love you too..and i'm sorry..i reaLLy don't this happened and hurt this much to you..hope you'LL understand one day..Y.Y

.:. i miss my mum .:.

I MISS MY MUM..damn missing her right now..how i wish she is here right now beside me..depressing..aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ is it right?..is it okay?..am i doing right?..shouLd i teLL 'em or not..i'm reaLLy confusing now..wiLL everythings gonna be fine?..wiLL it?..i'm reaLLy worry..damn worry-ing..i don't want anythings happened..if my mum were here..she definietLy know how and teLL me what shouLd i do..i miss you mum..i need you..T.T 

hopefuLLy everythings gonna be fine and get better day by day..aLL those probLems pLease go away from my Life..i don't wanna meet you again..Leave me aLone..don't disturb my famiLy..i'm sick and tired of facing you..

..:Lost:..



today i woke up as usuaLLy at 7am..but,,i feLL asLeep..and when i woke up again i panickLy Look at the cLock and reaLise that it's aLready 08:06am..gosh..i oversLept..i've got to hurry up..and i'm done at 08:15am..[i never reaLise i couLd be this fast for bath-ing,,dress-ing and Lotion-ing..haha..] in the middLe i got nagging by my mum..even when i'm done i got nagging again by my dad aa..but i know it's my fauLt for oversLept on my working day..>.< i arrived at my work pLace at 08:22am..

aaaaaaaaaaaaa..I'M LATE ON MY 1ST WORKING DAY IN 2010..[my working time is from 8am tiLL 4pm] not a good omen..

suddenLy i reaLise..i've been feeLing sad,,feeLing down,,feeLing bLank for most of the day and just repeatead my Life day by day for the past few months..eating..sLeeping..working..watching..eating..sLeeping..working..watching~ i've Lost my courage..Lost my spirit..Lost my purpose..Lost my meaning of Life..where is the cheerfuL me?....the spirited me?..who aLways Look and think of the bright sight?..i feLt so down..so Lost..

i mixx myseLf..>.< COME ON,,BUCK UP KAIXING!! find your strength..find your courage..find your spirit..find your way..everycLoud has a siLver Lining..

be HAPPY~ =]

.:. Lost my VOICE .:.

my first post..I LOST MY VOICE..haha~
after having my 2010 countdown party at CABANAWHITE BEACH PARTY Last day continue-ing my party with V.S.N my xay and bobo aLong with WK and ko[my mian bao..=p] in a middLe..HIGH moment began after a song brought by WK..here's the crazy began..XD me and xiL even do some hand word[shou yu..don't know what it caLL..=p] when bobo and anna were singing..haha..we sang we Laugh we dance..DAMN FUNNY DAMN HIGH DAMN CRAZY..XD i'm so happy spending my very Last day of 2009 and my very 1xt day of 2010 with my xay xay..=]

P.S : So happy having my very first day of 2010 with my Ladies and my xay..fuLL of happy and funny moment..Let's ceLebrate our everyday together with Lots of Laughter..Lots of Happiness..Lots Of Love..=] hope that we can countdown together every year..Love you aLL my dearest..mwahhhhhhhhhh~

.:. 31.12.2009 .:.

     yeah~ on 31.12.2009 i'm ceLebrating my countdown party at CABANA..WHITE BEACH PARTY XD first,, we get Lost on the way to cabana coz we aLL didn't know which way to go there..then we arrived in somekind of countdown party..we asked the peopLe is here cabana..he repLy no,,cabana is more far away from here..we ought to be at cabana aLready..but we didn't notice the pLace cox got no Light on road..haha..then we drove back and arrived in a pLace got nobody but tiger statue..LOL~

     weLL,,at Laxt..we arrive at CABANA resort..yuhuy~ i'm coming.. =p we soon get dresse-ing and put on some make-up for aLmost an hour after check-in..XD we were a LittLe bit dissapointed [hmm..maybe much more] about the party..1st Dissapointment..not so crowded as we thought..didn't got the party 气氛..most of peopLe there is All Star's Member [All Star is the Team that heLd that Party]..because we were informed that the Party was Limeted for 300 peopLe..got dinner..a LittLe game..a mini concert..of course aLong with the fireworks..2nd Dissapointment..the Dinner..not so good..it's a buffet..the dishes Look a Like with what we caLLed "Nasi Lemak"..the dishes did not keep it certain warm/celcious..maybe it's aLso cause of the wind..you know..beach..we aLL xay..不好吃..prefer my dad buy for me de Nasi Lemak..=p  3rd Dissapontment..Party Begin..the Sound System..ERROR!!!! @.@ how can sound system error in a countdown party..it's a very important thing ee..- . -|l'  that's ruin that party's 气氛..>.< party have been started but we aLL busy taking photo on the beach..in the room..hahaha..tiLL the sound system recovered..hasn't too Late..yeah~ catch up with the time to countdown..that's when the party began to feeL so fun..haha..LuckyLy,,the Fireworks didin't dissapoint us..=] watching for about an hour..xD after that..back to room..cLean our seLf..then sLeep time..=p 4th Dissapointment..the next day's Breakfast..prefer to eat pop mie..haha..after taken our bath..photo time..yeah~ if you get aLong with us..sooner or Later you wiLL turn to be a photo maniac..xixixi..that's how our countdown party's going..Leaving Cabana Liao..but the Party hasn't stop..

P.S : To Be Continued to My Next Post..=]